Title: "Crippled Wings"

Summary: Poem about Alan

Rating: PG

Spoilers/Timeline: First book

Characters: Alan

Crippled Wings

Pain made him insecure.

Pain made him afraid.

Pain crippled his wings.

Pain made him hate.

He hated the body he was in

He hated the cards life dealt him

He hated how hungry he was for affection

It made him feel ashamed.

He hated how quick he was to tears.

He hated the way he said

things before he had the chance to think.

He hated how he wasn’t quite smart enough

Not handsome enough in his mind.

Hair too messy, skin too raw.

He hated how he got shy, he hated the temper that he could have.

He hated how easy he was to tease

Hated his nervous habits

And for fuck’s sake, could someone please

Deflower him?

He thought he was too quiet, he thought he was too loud.

He hated what life took from him.

He hated what it never gave.

All he loved was his true family

A family with five, make that four, last names.